Emily Dickinson: "If you were coming in the Fall"

The poem I read for today is titled "If you were coming in the fall". It is one of the works that Dickinson wrote of love. Emily Dickinson is noted as a rather emotionally unstable woman. Therefore, I cannot help but think that her works on love deeply reflected her own inner-personal emotions. May be she was secretly in love with someone? Though she had a close relationship with a few men, her biography states that she and her sister never married. However, when she moved to Philadelphia, she maintained a close relationship to a minister named Charles Wadsworth. 

The speaker of this poem is wondering when she will see her beloved, therefore, she is waiting in anticipation and admits to doing anything to make time go by faster. There is a wanting and a desire of the heart for another in this poem. Time is sometimes a long and hard wall between two people. 

Resources:
http://www.biography.com/people/emily-dickinson-9274190#early-life-and-education

IF you were coming in the fall,
I ’d brush the summer by
With half a smile and half a spurn,
As housewives do a fly.

If I could see you in a year,      5 
 I ’d wind the months in balls,
And put them each in separate drawers,
Until their time befalls.

If only centuries delayed,
I ’d count them on my hand,        10
Subtracting till my fingers dropped
Into Van Diemen’s land.

If certain, when this life was out,
That yours and mine should be,
I ’d toss it yonder like a rind,        15
And taste eternity.

But now, all ignorant of the length
Of time’s uncertain wing,
It goads me, like the goblin bee,
That will not state its sting.        20